When our soul is tired, our emotions get intensified in every possible sense. Even a small fight has the potential to scar us, and even a small comment has the potential to make us angry.
We all feel exhausted and tired at some point of time in life, and it happens because of the monotonous life we all have been living for a long time. The journey of life is comprised of experiences, life-changing hurdles, emotional turmoils, and constant heartbreaks. With every lesson we have learned in life, good or bad, it has made the person who we are today. But after a point, our souls get tired more than our body. It is so because our body always demands to be active even though our soul and mind want to rest.
Good experiences in life evolve us, whereas, every bad experience in life change us. The change takes a toll on us every time, and gradually the zeal to lead a life starts draining off. Soon we start waiting for days to end soon, instead of facing the day with positivity and zeal. However, we do not realize that our soul is tired, and our mind is crying for mercy till the time we find ourselves doing these things that hint our soul is now broken and is giving up.
This is different. This feeling of not being able to get out of bed is not akin to that feeling when people want to sleep a bit more. It is a feeling that makes us feel that we are falling off the cliff, deeper and deeper into the world of despair. We feel extremely exhausted all the time, wait for a long time for the sleep to come. The nights feel too long and the mornings feel too daunting, and all we want to do is lie down and let the negative thoughts attack us.
When our soul is tired, our emotions get intensified in every possible sense. Even a small fight has the potential to scar us, and even a small comment has the power to make us angry. We find ourselves breaking down at the drop of a hat, without actually understanding the reason behind it. It happens because our soul has gone through a lot and was never able to react to any situation honestly. Our soul often gets tired when we fail to stay authentic to our feelings and wear a mask that stops us from showing our anger, sadness, annoyance and hurt that we experience on daily basis.
We often hear people asking us - "What's wrong?", "Are you alright?", "You look dull?". And most of the time we respond saying "Nothing", "I am fine" to all those we are surounded with. It is a tiring task to be around people when your soul wants to be left alone. It is not a good thing to force our heart and mind into scenarios that demand to interact with people, because it exhausts our soul deeply. Therefore, when we find ourselves alone in the room, sitting on the bed, and letting those thoughts process in our mind, we then understand how comfortable we have become in our loneliness and how much we hate putting up a show for others.
Being constantly taken for granted and exploited for the good person we have always been to others, our soul wears off. There comes a time, when we feel too tired to put in our heart and mind to help others or find a solution for their problems. Instead, we choose to leave them and let them deal with their problem. It happens so because we are worn out, and we just do not have any energy left to be of any good for anyone else, even to ourselves.
We give our heart and soul for the people we love. We put everything we can to save our relationship, to keep them happy and to be there when they need someone. However, not being loved back, and constantly letting our hearts beaten by the same people, leaves our soul broken for life. So broken, that when we stop feeling anything for anyone, we find ourselves feeling the discomfort around people who love us. Being loved by anyone, even by the person who has hurt us for most of our life annoys us to the core, and all we feel like doing is run away. We can heal and fix a wound that's on our body, but not when our soul is hurt.
All those times when we have cried all night, and have spent time stressing about the future, we feel hard to make our body work and do anything physical. We feel that a heavy weight has been put on our soldier and we are dragging ourselves to do anything that demands our physical presence. There is a sense of 'I can't take too much' going inside our head all the time, because every single second becomes too much to take in. The only thing different about this kind of physical heaviness is the unnoticed, unexpressed emotions and feelings that have become a heap and pile, making our heads heavy, body clumsy and soul tired.